So in Psikta Zutreta, Esther 4:17 (I have no idea what that is, so if anyone wants to enlighten me, I’d be grateful), it says “Yeshuas Hashem K’heref Ayin.” G-d’s Salvation will come in the blink of an eye.
It’s hard to understand this. But I had an experience today which, I think, gave me a tiny taste of what that might be like.
Chol HaMoed is hard with little kids. My husband worked most of the days (he had one day off. Yay!), and so it’s just me and the kids. And no routine. And very little down time.
This morning started off abysmally. Just horrible. My most high-maintenance child was being, well, very high-maintenance, and I totally lost it a couple times. The baby (okay, he’s really a toddler, but indulge me) was upset at me because I wouldn’t let him pour a cup of water all over his breakfast (I am a very mean mommy), and when I finally let him out of the high chair, he proceeded to dump a cup of tea all over my desk. Where my laptop was.
Thankfully, the laptop was spared.
I, however, was a basket case.
It could have just gone downhill from there.
But, somehow, somehow, through sheer will and Divine intervention, I managed to pull it together, and we had an amazing day at the Holden Arboretum with a good friend. And there were still stressful times, as there will be when out with kids, but the overall feeling of the day is good and positive.
And I was thinking about how it’s like that sometimes. Everything feels horrible and hopefully and you just know it’s all going to end badly.
And then it doesn’t.
And you even forget how bad it started out.
May we all experience this turning around, this amnesia of what was bad. May we experience relief and salvation from the difficulties of our lives.